Category: Content

Art by Melissa Clark,

The Hearts of the Fathers

by Jeanine Bee, art by Melissa Clark,

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My dad thinks he only taught me one thing growing up. Every chance he got he would remind us, “Kids, never fight a monkey.” I’m not sure what internet video or TV special he saw about fighting monkeys that prompted him to make this his motto, but it is something I’ll always remember. Once, our home teacher shared with us a moment he had when he reminded his daughter of one of those oft repeated Mormon adages. Something like “The spirit goes to bed at 10:00,” or “Modest is Hottest.” His daughter had heeded his sage advice and, of course, avoided something major, like an explosion at a nearby gas station or a freak tornado. After that story my dad said, “I wish I had taught my children something worthwhile like that.” My brother and I piped in, “Dad! You did teach us something important! Remember? ‘Never fight a monkey!’” My dad looked a little embarrassed at our praise. Continue reading…

Art by Nick Stephens,

Excerpts from Early Mormon Journals: Christmas 1835-1859

by Various Authors, art by Nick Stephens, "River Rim"

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Jonathan Crosby, recent convert and visitor to Kirtland, 1835
I paid for the entertainment, and then walked about town and went to the temple; it was not finished. This was Christmas Day and I was invited to a feast. Patriarch Smith, the father of the Prophet was there giving blessings, and told me when I got moved there with my wife he would give us blessings.

Luman Shurtliff, Nauvoo resident preparing for the trail west, 1845.
The temple now was nearly finished. On the 25th of December, 1845, Christmas, my wife and I received our endowments. Continue reading…

Art by Traci Osborn

Digestion in the Garden

by Darlene Young , art by Traci Osborn

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Cherries and pears, pomegranates, peaches
apricot syrup that zings through the bloodless
veins, courses down to your Achilles and back again
to the dancing heart still cycling backwards.
Parsley, asparagus, kumquat and kiwi
and sometimes potato for big belly sleepiness.

Enough, if you can learn to love the yearning,
trust the manna, never hoard. Call it good,
sweet aching empty, then the filling, then the spending–
like the tides, like the branches waving in the wind. Continue reading…

Art by Susan Gilgan

Stillborn

by Merrijane Rice, art by Susan Gilgan

You were wanted,
not an accident.

Your first fluttering cells
set plans pulsing—
names, knitting, nursery colors,
universities. Continue reading…

Art by Nick Stephens

The Five Books of Jesus Excerpt–The Cleansing of the Temple

by James Goldberg, art by Nick Stephens

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When they approach the eastern wall of Jerusalem—God’s chosen city—the people who have come with Jesus start to pave the road with their clothes, lining the way for him. And as he draws closer to the city, they start to sing from a psalm:

Blessed is he who comes in the name of the Lord!We bless you from the House of the Lord!
God is the Lord, let his light shine forth: bind the sacrifice with cords to the altar! Continue reading…

Art by Randal Marsh

The Elder Who Wouldn’t Stop…

by Wm Morris, art by Randal Marsh

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Elder Russell’s greenie was the most diligent, obedient missionary he had served with so far in Spain. There was only one problem: he wouldn’t stop drumming. During breakfast, lunch and dinner; phone calls, visits, and discussions. With his fingers, his fists, his feet, his knees, his mouth. With forks and spoons, pens and pencils, pamphlets and notebooks, twigs and breadsticks. On the bus and on the metro; on the table and on the counter; on the elevator and on the stairs. On his chest and legs and arms. On his scriptures, on his dinner plate, on his backpack, on his bed. On every door frame, every handrail, every seat back, every street sign. And even sometimes on Elder Russell. Continue reading…

Art by Cassandra Barney

Putting Up Peaches

by Merrijane Rice, art by Cassandra Barney

Beside the garden wall where grapevines run,
a peach tree stands, diseased and bent with age.
Her blackened branches reach up to the sun
in daily supplication for her wage.

Each year, I think, must surely be her last,
but faithfulness is undeterred by whims.
So, not content to rest on harvests past,
she bears young fruit on geriatric limbs.

With every spring, new buds and blooms emerge
and swell with promise fed by summer rains.
Though twisted and decrepit, still the surge
of liquid light flows through her ancient veins.

When winter strips her bare, I’ll be consoled
by pantry shelves stacked deep with jars of gold.

Art by Janis Wunderlich,

A Trick of Broken Earth

by Mark Penny, art by Janis Wunderlich, "Family Fight"

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He did what most men think of doing
But do not
Because of fear.

It barely matters now who spoke first.
The rift was on them well before the words.
The world between them cracked
Tectonically.
Like continents they crashed
Backward
And away. Continue reading…

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Red Rock

by Marianne Hales Harding

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You can’t take a picture of this.
No matter the angle, the pictures are just rocks, sky, water.
Nothing stirs in me when I look at them.
I am still caught in the swell of forgettable catastrophes, tight and hurried.
I delete every one of them. And then I take a few more. Continue reading…

Art by Alisha Stamper

Unwilling

by Nicole Wilkes Goldberg, art by Alisha Stamper

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Dying hurts worse than death.

Death is the release of broken-down tissues and unwilling life. Dying is the agony of the battle, the hollowing of womb and water, blood and bone.

I had to agree to let her go. Continue reading…

Art by Ashley mae Hoiland

Sister Hartley’s Coffeepot

by Melinda Porter Wilden, art by Ashley mae Hoiland

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As Angie Hartley listened to her husband praise her in his testimony, her anger crept up, only to get stuffed back down by the guilt.

“I need to tell you how much I love and rely on my wife.”  Justin Hartley said to the congregation.  He gazed down at the podium as he paused to sniff back some emotion.  “She is the spiritual strength of our home, and I just try to stay out of her way.  I’m not sure how I managed to trick her into marrying me, but whatever I did, I’m glad it worked.”  A courtesy laugh rumbled through the congregation.

Angie hung a smile on her face like a mask.  Justin talked like that a lot.  She would protest his praise.  He would laugh and accuse her of being too humble.  Nothing ever changed.  Angie was lonely up there on her husband’s pedestal.  She wanted him to rescue her, not worship her. Continue reading…

Art by Jennifer Eichelberger,

Heavens to Betsy

by Connie Lewis, art by Jennifer Eichelberger, "Melvin the Christmas Elephant"

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The snow started to fall and so we lit a fire and mom made hot chocolate, getting us ready for our favorite winter pastime. With a perfect view of the hill in front of our house, we had all the entertainment we needed for a snowy Saturday afternoon, watching the cars through our picture window as they slipped and slid trying to get enough traction to get up the hill. Then the phone rang.

It was my Uncle Jimmy and he just had to put up his Christmas lights right now and would my dad come and help? Dad said “Okay” and hung up. I could see him struggling not to swear. It was what he would normally do with his quick Welsh temper, but I watched him struggle and he finally won. “Get your coats,” he said as he jammed his hat on his head, “we’re going to Jim’s.”

My dad wouldn’t normally hesitate to swear. His language along with a cigarette and cup of coffee had sometimes defined him. Continue reading…

Art by Nick Stephens,

Another Testament

by Emily Harris Adams, art by Nick Stephens, "The Same Yesterday, Today, and Forever."

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They say salvation is recorded in your hands,
Pressed deep into your palms and wrists:
Engraved, torn, drilled,

Written. Continue reading…

Art by Vilo Elisabeth Westwood,

Afterlife

by Jonathon Penny, art by Vilo Elisabeth Westwood, "Still Life--Decay"

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His skin didn’t age: it retained all its youthful elasticity, its spring, and never fell, though his bones and joints were wizened, his heart shrunken against its beating, his brain withdrawn from memory and feeling as from a long-despised drug.

She was as vital as a child—full of a surprising sensuality, surprised by it always, but still a child in passions and play. And yet the sun had scored her skin with deep, clustering lines and branches and stories. Every mountain pass and peak was written there, every deep dusk sail and cobbled walk recorded in cells, engraved, an album of her days, a composite of all the lives she’d lived around his silence and solitude. Continue reading…

Art by Nick Stephens,

Excerpt from “The Straw” (written 1922)

by Nephi Anderson, art by Nick Stephens,

Earl paused in his story to look at her as she entered. Yes, she was good to look at in her well-fitting, modest dress. She seated herself and listened to the missionary experiences.

She had time now to observe him closer. As usual with returned missionaries, Earl had grown in many ways. He was more manly, he spoke with greater ease and assurance. His face shone with fervor as he told of his faith-promoting experience in the field. And as Mary sat and looked and listened, she wondered whether or not she had made a mistake when she had refused to become betrothed to him some three years ago, before he went on his mission. He was certainly a fine looking young man now, and perhaps she had been a little too hard on him because of some of his bad habits. Anyway, here he was, calling on her. His mission had no doubt straightened out the little kinks in his character, given him a testimony of the truth of the gospel, and, in short, made a man of him. Was her long-sought-for ideal to be attained? Was her heart’s yearnings to be satisfied? Were her prayers now to be answered? Continue reading…

Art by Nick Stephens,

A Great Destiny

by Eric James Stone, art by Nick Stephens,

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You tend to remember the face of a man you’ve sworn to kill.

As Groshen hoisted a rundlet of wine into the wagon, he spotted the crimson-robed prophet strolling along the village’s main road. Groshen had only met the prophet twice, but he recognized those copper-colored eyes divided by that bulging nose.

Despite his sudden rage, Groshen carefully lowered the cask into the wagon. He must catch the prophet alone, where no one could interfere. Continue reading…

Art by Vilo Elisabeth Westwood,

No Substitute for Chocolate

by Jeanna Mason Stay, art by Vilo Elisabeth Westwood, "Motherhood"

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“I have some bad news,” her husband said as he came home from Sunday bishopric meetings. “I really tried to suggest it. But they wouldn’t listen. You’re not getting food for Mother’s Day. You’re getting pansies.”

“Seriously?” She shook her head. It’s not that she was surprised, just that she was hoping for a little magic this year.

“I know, I’m sorry. I couldn’t convince them. I’ll try again next year, though.” He kissed her cheek and joked, “But hey, I hear you can eat pansies.”

She stuck her tongue out at him.

I am not getting pansies again next year, she silently vowed. I’ll make sure of that. Then she smiled. She had an idea. Continue reading…

Art by Amanda Demos Larsen,

Adolescent

by Merrijane Rice , art by Amanda Demos Larsen, "Amanda, Toys and Shoes (Afraid to Look)"

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He’s full of cornered shelves,
crammed cubbies,
drawers ajar and spilling over—
not quite fitting or filling
his space. Continue reading…
Art by Randal Marsh

Gyroscope

by Douglas Staker, art by Randal Marsh

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Built into my God-seed breast
is a stainless gyroscope.
Deaf to passions,
blind to interests,
it ignores me, keeps its balance.
Its one concern is preservation
of the orientation
of the world of its creation.
Continue reading…

Art by Randal Marsh,

Album

by Scott Hales, art by Randal Marsh, "The Bee Keeper"

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Gilson sits with the missionaries as his mother makes them lunch. The newest elder, an American, wears Doc Martens with bright yellow stitching. Unscuffed.

Seeing the elder’s shoes reminds Gilson of the six months he spent with a rich American companion in the Bahía. Blond hair. Blue eyes. Teeth like a whitewashed wall. And this kid could be his brother. So many Americans joke about how all Brazilians look alike. They should look in the mirror.

His rich companion, Elder Crothe, was from California. Gilson and the other Brazilians called him “Croach,” but the Americans turned it into “Crotch.” Once the Brazilians got the joke, they said “Crotch” too. Crothe thought it was hilarious.

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Art by Emily King,

Ascetic

by Jonathon Penny, art by Emily King, "Preventative Measures II"

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For Jana Reiss, who paved the way

It happened for the first time in the spring of 2004: Jared Powell, his brother’s confesseur du jour, learned that said brother was an alcoholic, and out of one of love’s many rash and regrettable impulses, vowed that he would forego all alcoholic beverages in a show of support and solidarity with his brother, whom he really did love.

This was not a problematic oath in and of itself: Jared was a teetotaler, appropriate to his religion, and had never touched the stuff: “lips that touch wine, etc.” A compromise was struck: since he did not imbibe alcohol, he offered to give up his cola habit,  Continue reading…

Art by Nick Stephens

Beginning Ghazal

by Jake Balser, art by Nick Stephens

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I took two steps towards being freed here,

swore up and down that I would give heed here.

I made up my mind—the one you made for me.

Yes, my conscience feels guilty . . . but how do I plead here?

Continue reading…

Art by Vilo Elisabeth Westwood

In the Beginning

by James Goldberg, art by Vilo Elisabeth Westwood

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When he was young, they read the books

out loud.

When he was young, the words didn’t flash

from a page to the eye,

didn’t climb straight up an ocular rope to settle in some recess of his brain

–perhaps never to return.

Continue reading…